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I was reading my 2001 paper diary last night, marvelling at how I could be so miserable at a time when memory insists I was extremely happy. Well, I was extremely happy during that Japan trip, and if I was mournful afterwards, I will blame jetlag. I think I may have more or less got over my reflex state of 'there was a time when I was happy and this is not it oh woeeee'. Getting older will do that to you. The possibility of a golden future narrows, so you have to make the most of the present you've got. A good day is no longer 'had a happy outing to a great restaurant with good wine and good conversation with good friends' (certainly not now): it's 'my knees kind of behaved and my back didn't hurt me AT ALL!' So I had a good day today because I could walk to the laundromat and the café and the Fedex place without leaning on my walker more than half the time hey look how strong my leg is getting!
Still, in the middle of erranding I chanced on a Youtube vid of the Saiyuki Gaiden, and it was a pale cold April day, sun behind thin clouds so the world bleached out and timeless, and just for a bit I was back in that fannish world twenty-one years ago.
Which is as well because my lack of a desktop and a printer makes me all wibbly about What if my tax package gets lost? yes I have a tracking number but what if-- I can get this from the investment advisor and those if I email them to my bro and have him print them out for me and my dentist will tell me which orthodontist I paid big bucks to a year ago and he'll send me another receipt but there's T3s from the gov't really I know I should have photocopied everything but.
Please don't lose my tax package, Fedex.
Still, in the middle of erranding I chanced on a Youtube vid of the Saiyuki Gaiden, and it was a pale cold April day, sun behind thin clouds so the world bleached out and timeless, and just for a bit I was back in that fannish world twenty-one years ago.
Which is as well because my lack of a desktop and a printer makes me all wibbly about What if my tax package gets lost? yes I have a tracking number but what if-- I can get this from the investment advisor and those if I email them to my bro and have him print them out for me and my dentist will tell me which orthodontist I paid big bucks to a year ago and he'll send me another receipt but there's T3s from the gov't really I know I should have photocopied everything but.
Please don't lose my tax package, Fedex.