feeling like the protagonist in "Flowers for Algernon" when he looked at essays he had written while learning high level Japanese a few years prior,
Oh god. (buries face in hands) Yes, rather. Life inside the language envelope is so different from life outside. And you think it's inside you, that the language has taken hold, but it hasn't.
Reading French is a chore. All a matter of vocabulary I think I ought to know but don't. B-D aside, there actually isn't that much I want to read. But I'd like to be able to speak (and *hear*) it easily again. Chinese OTOH is a case of everyone wanting to teach me to speak-- an impossible task-- and me wanting to read. Self-teaching didn't work too well last time-- it never does for me. I need outside discipline. So yeah, I dunno. Maybe that online course in being a translator instead? Big bucks, probably lotsa work, but not something I've ever done before.
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Oh god. (buries face in hands) Yes, rather. Life inside the language envelope is so different from life outside. And you think it's inside you, that the language has taken hold, but it hasn't.
Reading French is a chore. All a matter of vocabulary I think I ought to know but don't. B-D aside, there actually isn't that much I want to read. But I'd like to be able to speak (and *hear*) it easily again. Chinese OTOH is a case of everyone wanting to teach me to speak-- an impossible task-- and me wanting to read. Self-teaching didn't work too well last time-- it never does for me. I need outside discipline. So yeah, I dunno. Maybe that online course in being a translator instead? Big bucks, probably lotsa work, but not something I've ever done before.